confusion never stops

2006-07-26T01:31:00.000+03:00

she's beautiful..
she's kind..
she's totally upstream..
she is one
of her kind..
like an angel
in my dream..

2006-07-25T01:34:00.000+03:00

she died
she died
oh what a sorrow
she didn't cry
i cried

She died in that darkness
Hearing her mother beats

She didn’t want to go out
In such a life full of cheats

i can imagine her growing
i can imagine her dignified

she would have her brother's sole
she would have her mother's eyes

she would be so beatiful
she would be much of pride

but..
she died
she died
she didn't cry
i cried
:'(

2006-07-24T02:14:00.000+03:00

my latest drawing
tell me what do u think

WANNA FLY

2006-07-21T23:16:00.000+03:00

I set to the table for supper with my parents...
there's nothing but "dead" silence...
everyone holding a conversation of his/her own in their minds...
it's the only time i can realize the sound of the air conditioning running...
and the TV sound coming in the background from the living room..the sound of some arabic movie that "then" sounds like if they talking a foreign language...
and that "spoon" music sounds like it'll never end...and for sure the sound of that little knife hurts me in the heart more than a sword can do....
one spoon is down..i raise my head..it's him..he says "al7mdilla" and leave the table..or should i say "the field"...and she starts to clean up the mess after him..like she always do..
I clean up my mess..leave..just more terrified of the word "marriage"

2006-07-18T22:33:00.000+03:00

Lebannon
A message from the lebanese to the world :'(
http://www.fromisraeltolebanon.org/

2006-07-18T17:49:00.000+03:00

A Look

-إلى النجوم...نعم..انه ينظر إلى النجوم..
-لا..أعتقد انه ينظر إلى ابعد من ذلك..
-أبعد؟؟..أين؟
-إلى الما لا نهاية
-أتراه يفتقد أحدا؟
-بالتأكيد..شخص مسن مثله..لابد أنه يفتقد الكثيرين
-هل تقصد أبناءه وأحفاده؟؟
-لا لا..أقصد أبعد من ذلك
-.........
-انظر كم شخصا تفتقد نهاية كل سنه..واضربها في عدد سنون هذا العجوز
-معك حق..
-........
-ربما توفيت زوجته قريبا
-هل تعتقد أن هذه نهاية حب؟
-ربما
-لكنه لا يبكي..ولا أرى أثرا للبكاء حتى
-الصدمة قد تتعدى مرحلة البكاء...وبكاء القلب لا يترك أثراً
-معك حق
-..............
-ربما يكون مجرد ضحية من ضحايا الأسهم وفقد عقله
-لا لا...من فقد عقله سيبدو أكثر حيوية..فالعقل أداة كبت أكثر منه أداة تحريك......ولا تقل معك حق
-حسنا حسنا..أنت محق
-هههه..لم لا أذهب وأسأله..ربما يحتاج بعض المساعدة
اقتربت منه..جلست بجانبه...."السلام عليكم" قلتها وابتسامة خفيفة على وجهي
لم يرد ولم يتحرك فيه سوا شعره الخفيف تلعب به نسمات الليل الباردة..نظرت إلى صديقي نظرة تعجب ثم نظرت مجددا إلى عينيه التائهتين وأمسكت بمعصمه أبحث عن شئٍ يتحرك...
تقدم منا صديقي "ما الأمر"...نظرت إليه وقد عرفت الجواب أخيراً "انه يفتقد روحه"

2006-07-16T18:08:00.000+03:00

A SIGH

يا ويل حالي كل ما جالي طاريك
يا ظيم قلبي كل ما باسمك تنادوا
يا طول ليلي من بعد يومك وماضيك
ما انام ليلي والتهي بالملام

الوم نفسي كيف عيت تراضيك
والوم عيني كيف عيت تشوفك
والوم قلبي كيف يرضى يخليك
والوم روحي على ذاك الخصام

ياليت عيني ما لمحت يوم(ن) عيونك
وياليت قلبي ماعرف يوم طاريك
وياليت سمعي ما عرف كلمة احبك
وياليت صدري ما عرف معنى الهيام

أشوفك قبالي وابتسم لك واراضيك
وما انتبه الا وطيفك تلاشى
واقضي باقي الليل على محاريك
واكتشف انك حبيبي منام

ابوس ايدك كانك تحس باللي يحاتيك
انكان قلبك يقبل الاعتذارات
اعتذر لك ارجع الله يخليك
ارجع لي..بس..ابغى اشوفك وانام

2006-07-16T05:15:00.000+03:00

Tagged by Doomy allah yehdeeha

*Time started: 11:25 pm
*Name : A7mad
*Nickname(s): blushful, elmst7i, ubo 7aya, solomi, zolomi, blue rush
*My nickname between my friends: solomi
*Single or Taken: single
*Sex: male
*Birthday: sep 12, 1983
*Siblings: 6 older brothers & sisters (4 M,2 F)
* are you the older between your siblings ? no, the youngest *_*
*Hair color: black
*Eye color: brown
*T-shirt Size: S-M
*Shoe size: 43-43.5
*Height: 180 cm
*What do you look like right now: like a plumber (blue short, white t-shirt & messy hair) :P
*Where do you live: Riyadh
*Righty or lefty: Righty
Relationships
*Who are your closest friends: 6areg, 3badi, 7emo, 3mr, and my bigger bro Fai9al
*Do you have a bf/gf?: no
* What does friendship means to you?? giving help to succeed through life, giving time to listen when I’m upset, giving advice when I’m wrong and the most important forgive when I do a fault.
Fashion Stuff
*Where is your fav place to shop ?: bossini, GAP, FILA …..
Favorites
*Colors: blue
*Numbers: 8
*Food: Italian, Chinese
*Boys name: Fai9al
*Girls name: Maha
*Subject in school: umm English and sport J
*Animal: kittens, turtles
*Drink: espresso, green tea with mint, Holsten(strawberry)
*Veggie: pepper( filfil romy)
*Fruits: peach, orange, cherry
*Fast food place: hardeez, 44, BAAK,
*Place to visit: Dubai
*Month: September
*Ice Cream: caramel
*Breakfast: liver (kabdah :/ )
*Favorite cartoon character: Beavis
*Favorite Movie character: russel crowe in “beautiful mind”
Have You Ever
*Bungee jumped: No
*Broken the law: yes
*Put your tongue on a frozen pole: No
*Loved someone so much that it made you cry? no
*Broken a bone: YES
*Played truth or dare: yes
*Been in a physical fight: yes
*Been in a police car: yes
* been in a plane: yes
*Been in a sauna: no
*Been in a hot tub: no
*Swam in the ocean: no
*Fallen asleep in school: yes
*Broken someone's heart: yes
*Cried when someone died: Yeah :’(
*knocked on wood: no
*Flashed someone: no
*Lied: alot
*Laughed so hard you fell off your chair: yeah almost to death :P
*sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: yes, and at the end an Indian called by mistake :S
*Saved e-mails: yes
*Wished you were someone else: yeah
*Been rejected? mmm I think so
*Been in love?: yes
*Used someone: I don’t think so
*Been cheated on? yeah
*Done something you regret? yes
Random
*Stupidest thing you have ever done: putting a cockroach for the math. Teacher :S
*Last thing you said: t9b7een 3ala 5air
*Last thing you ate: orange and cherry
*Fav. Song: el gloob elsahya -Nawal
*Worst Thing that has happened to you this year: I always prefer to empty my recycle bin once In a while..so I don’t remmember
Have you Had:
*Chicken pox: don’t know actually :S
*Sore Throat: alot
*Cold: a lot…I’m at the end of one now
*Stitches: No
*Bloody nose: alot
Do you:
*Believe in love at first sight: yes of course
*Enjoy parks: mm yeah
*Like picnics: yes it’s nice
*Like school: depends
WHO???
*Who is the last person that called you: Mom
*Makes you laugh the most: 7emo
*Makes you smile a lot: 6areg
*You talked to last: 3badi
*You hugged?: 3mr
*You yelled at: 6alloly
*Told you they loved you: alot
Do You/Are You :
*Color your hair?: No :S
*Have piercings: besm ellah 3alay :
*Obsessive: kind of
*Compulsive: for some degree..yeah
*time finished: 12:29

i won't tag anybody..i would feel guilty if i tag any...

2006-06-30T04:19:00.000+03:00

Tagged by chocoholic

1) You receive a gift. You open it and say "wow this is exactly what I need. It came in time". What is the gift?
Addidas golden soccer boots

2) Close your eyes, now open them. You are someone else. Who do you want it to be?
leonardo davinchi

3) You are setting in a coffee shop in the Champs-Elysées. there are five chairs around the table, you set on one, who sets on the other four?
1. Tareq
2. abadi
3. 7emo
4. mmm Avril lavign :P

4) They give you a chance to appear on T.V for five minutes. Everyone on the planet is watching you, and everyone will believe whatever comes out of your mouth. What will your message be?
if i could talk in the first place i'd go like "aaaa..i'm a7mad:$..u'r all humans..no difference between u..and u don't need to fight each other at all....aaaa...and ya..every girl have to give me a hug :P"

2006-06-27T16:21:00.000+03:00

Walking
An activity I’ve heard about but never pleased to meet..an activity that you only see in movies..and that’s of course bcoz of our lovely hot weather and our dear angry sun here in SA…and I’m giving u a warning here..don’t ever go like “I will try it anyway..a shower is not a problem” coz u will have a big loss if u think about it…u will lose a T-shirt (u will sweat like an Egyptian teacher), u will lose a friend (no deodorant in the world can handle it in that weather..i suggest they do a portable one u put in u’r armpits like those they put in the toilets that sprays automatically every minute), and finally u will lose u’r dignity getting stalked by hay2ah (coz u r guilty until proofing otherwise :@) and the only thing u won’t lose is weight (coz u’ll head directly to Mac or Burger king..and boost urself..it’s always like that).
So..we have to face it..we’r not a “walking” people..we’r a “riding” people..we ride cars in the streets..ride our wives in the house..and at work our bosses ride us..while hay2a ride us all…..it’s all about riding :P:p…
Have u ever thought why the hell they put those big sidewalks in alta7lyah street..did they thought like a creature will fry himself there…everyone is in their cars with the a/c and stereos on, and spinning their radars looking for chicks (although still there r guys putting their radars on “cute boys” YUK :S)
but I finally figured it out..they’r putting those sidewalks just to give more time and bigger chance for guys to flirt girls before they enter a restaurant or a cafe..as if they know how bad we r in that ..good step really..and I hope those tutorials work and we don’t have to hear this “amooot yalfosto8i” things again…
so everybody, if u want to walk get outta here..wherever u go..at least u will be flirted in a good way ;P….
ciao

2006-06-27T04:41:00.000+03:00

a friend insisted on me to do this test..and i did it for fun..coz i don't believe in those...all their results is applicable to u whatever u say :S...anyway this is my result..i hope it's a good thing..is it?

You're a Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and playYou're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a partyOr you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dareAnd you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

2006-06-17T19:45:00.000+03:00

A Wish
I always believed that somewhere out there in the world…there is people who is an identical copy of me…sharing the same personality..the same way of thinking..the same way of communicating..with the same reactions and expressions..almost everything but the outside look…
Maybe because my finite mind can’t imagine that every person in the world have his unique personality..or maybe because of that faces I run into through my life where I felt that I’m looking at myself…but anyhow I believe in that what so ever…
you know what?..If someday I met a female identical of me…I will run away..without looking back…and I have my reasons ;)
but my wish is to find one of my male identical and get close to him..to know myself better..and to appreciate every good thing in me that i don't see usually..either that, or maybe I end up by killing myself.

2006-06-17T03:01:00.000+03:00

hi everyone...
seems that it is the national day of cousins...coz i wanted to go out with the guys..and everyone i call tell me that he's out with his cousins and he can't come...
i ended so bored..so frustrated..i needed no more than someone to talk to..so i just grapped my pencil..and drew a chubby laughing girl on a paper...and i talked and laughed with her all night..
i had more fun than anytime :)
goodbye for now..she's waiting for me..
ciao

2006-06-15T15:17:00.000+03:00

It’s time to tell you
Things I didn’t want to mention
It’s time to give you
A little of my apprehension
I hate it when you tell me
That I’m not giving you attention
I hate it when you kill our love
And give it much predestination
I love you..
Ya..i love you
But..GOD..u’r putting so much tension

2006-06-15T02:36:00.000+03:00

hi guys...
that's my 1st blog here..and i think that won't make a difference...coz my world is confused..
and i can't tell the difference between beginnings and endings...
GOD..i hate endings..that's why i hate beginnings also..cos without beginning u won't have to end a thing...but however..u already began a life..out of u'r wish..and it will end someday..out of u'r wish too..
i told u my world is confused..and i don't know what i'm saying..but anyhow i began with this blog and i have to end it..
u don't understand a thing??...i hope so...
ciao